Pills....wear?

It might get a little graphic here so read on at you own risk....
I received the estrogen and progesterone that I will be taking to help the baby hold on. I also started taking them today and the progesterone I have to put in my you know what!!!! Well I guess it is better than having the shots. I have a great friend that had the shots and it hurt her so bad that she could hardly walk! So this is better than that just icky :-Z The medicine should come with an insert I know they have them!
I am glad I started the pills it just makes me feel more certain that this is going to happen. It has been such a long journey that I feel something can go wrong at any minute. That is one reason why I cannot wait for the transfer to happen. I know that many things can go wrong even after the transfer it is just that I know I found parents that really want to do this.
I just think of how the parents feel I know it has probably been even a longer journey for them. So I am very happy that it is happening within a week! Happy for them and me.

Flight, Hotel, .....New York!!!!

So I got the news that I am going to New York next week! The best thing is my Hubby gets to come too! His work just changed his schedule so he had the days off that we are going. The third party agency was very quick to get the flight and hotel booked for us. Which was great for the little fact that it was the only thing that went fast in this entire process! I found a sitter for the kids, the garden, and now I need one for the dog...we will see on that one.
I did realize something...If all goes according to plan the day of the transfer will be the same day that my Sister died last year.... A heart wrenching realization at such a wonderful time. Life for a life. Not that I am looking to or could ever replace my Sister, that will never happen she was unique, just life ending and beginning again. Kind of ironic.
I am over joyed that I am able to be on this journey with this family to help them have a child uniquely their own.

So excited!!!!

I had lab work and a sonogram today and I found out I will be going to New York NEXT WEEK!!!! I cannot wait to be implanted and get this show on the road. I feel like I am not doing anything until I am implanted and I really want to do something!
The doctor that I am working with tries to use as little drugs (progesterone and estrogen) as possible so I will only be on the drugs for a small amount of time. I like that because I do not like to put fake stuff in to my body but I want to have them to make sure the baby holds on.
This is all going to be worth it!

Testing to come

I have another appointment for a sonogram and blood work on Wednesday to see where I am. My contact at the doctor's office in New York said I will be implanted the end of July. The dates are just going to get clearer from this point on. Which is a good thing.
I am so happy that all my tests have come back good. It just has really confirmed to me that this is what God wants for my life. I cannot wait to meet -either over email or in person the parents of the child I will be birthing. The contract is being printed up and after that I think I will send them an email asking them about their story. I am very interested in why and how of their journey.

Period. Period.

On the 2nd of July I thought that I started my period. It was light but I thought it would start flowing, it did not. So I had told the fertility clinic that I had started so I went in for some testing, blood work and a sonogram to see how thick my lining was. Well I was thick and if it was after my period it should of been thin...boo. I was at the perfect thickness, 8mm for implantation the Doctor said but I was not on the medications I needed to be on yet.
So today I started my real period which I knew would happen right after my testing. I get so worried when I get testing done! You know you think about everything that can be wrong probably is...then you find out you are fine, and you did not need to worry AT ALL!
The fertility clinic let me know today that I will be implanted my the beginning of August!!! I am very excited!! I get to go to New York twice and I hope at least one time Allen, my hubby will be able to come too.
I am hoping that I will be able to meet the Intended Parents at least when I get implanted. Since we are going to be so far away from each other I plan to email them at least once a week to let them know about the pregnancy. I am getting nervous about talking to them...why do I do that?!? I know only good can come out of it. I feel so weird I am willing to help bring their child into the world but I do not know how to start a conversation with them. I feel silly. I know I will feel better when all is set up.
I know this is the right thing for me to do I have peace about that it is all the other stuff and my excitement that is getting me worked up.

Patience

So plans have changed a little... the family I was planing to be a surrogate for needed to wait so I signed up with a surrogacy center that found me Intended Parents ready to start the process. The couple is in China and they do not speak English. I am being out sourced to China!!! No really, it is illegal to have a gestational surrogate in China so they are doing it in America. They have already gone through the process of taking out the egg and sperm to make the embryo it is blastocyst and frozen in New York. I am going to fly out to New York to be implanted as soon as I get my cycle...I cant wait!!!
The funny thing is that I have been praying for patience and I have had many opportunities to learn patience this week. Waiting for my cycle to start, is one. My car transmission has gone out and we will have to wait to fix it, that's two. My van, because of the transmission problem, will only go up to 35 mph!!! I still have to drive it, that's three. Through it all I have learned and am continuing to learn patience.
The other day I had a customer service lady freak out on me but through God I as able to stay calm and defuse the situation (That is not normal for me). She gave me my appointment time and apologized out of obligation. I was satisfied and moved on. The next day she called me first thing in the morning and sincerely apologized and moved my appointment up to that day. She was so sweet and really felt bad. I was able to stay calm in the situation and God was able to change her heart with out me interfering.
I am very excited to start the surrogacy process but the time will come at the time it needs to. I just need to wait.